WW won't separate

[resolut]

Thanks. Then I am making some progress then myself.

My wife though is making no progress. During our discussion about D it was inevitable that the A would come up. She still puts up a wall about the A. Won't admit to it. Claims I don't understand. Am I tracking her car? I am not I tell her. What difference would it make? I know where you're going and who you are with I tell her. Etc, etc.

I just don't get it. The A is in plain site now. Its not secret and she won't admit to it or acknowledge my pain. How wayward can you get?

I feel like I need a suit of armor against the ridiculous things from our M that my wife accuses me of. When this first started I actually believed her, lost a lot of sleep, had anxiety and was very hurt. It took me a while to reflect on her accusations and realize they just aren't true. Just not humanly possible for me to have treated her like that. She's projecting on me I know.

Anyway, I just needed to write some of these things down. Looking forward to a run tonight, then a school event and then visiting my sons college this weekend.