Hi Becky99,
Your posts (both of them) made me smile and smile. Thank you so much for the encouragement. It means more than I have words for.
Yesterday my counselor made a comment that I think will be useful for you. It certainly gave me another angle in this thought process. I was moaning about the whole "bread crumbs" thing, and she said, "Remember, what you want to see in this journey is one thing, but from where he is standing, the view is different. What you see as him tossing bread crumbs, may in fact be him thinking you he is throwing you the whole cake 100%. He may be giving all he's got right now, not deliberately only giving you small pieces."
That may or may not be true, and most likely I will never really know for sure, but it made me feel a little less frustrated.
Another thing that came to me last night as I was watching (binge/marathon) Mad Men, is this- There is no shame in being left by your husband.
Look at Betty. She was all a man could possibly want, and yet Don just did her wrong, so wrong, then just walked out. NOT HER FAULT. HIS ISSUES.
That helped me too.
If there were a real time meeting room, I think we'd all enjoy each others' company and never run out of things to talk about!! Hugs~


M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton