I can't speak for everyone but glad someone did speak up and say we aren't ready to strangle you. That is what this forum is for. Putting things out there and people giving you feedback. Just keep right on posting all you need to.
I think the interesting part of all of this is that he gave you a reason, but you are unsure of his reason, which I totally understand, based on how everything went down, but try not to focus on that. Try to focus on you. Again, some things you said in this most recent post ring very loud and very true for me too. I tend to be very selective and guarded on the front end, but once I let someone in, I'm ALL in. And, it takes me awhile to get past that, so I totally and completely understand where you are coming from. I just don't want you to go down the road of thinking it is all on you or you were the only one at fault or any of that. It takes 2!
I will continue to send positive thoughts, vibes and prayers your way. Hang in there, G!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids