I'm glad you guys are not ready to strangle me yet and have given me such good support.
I think he did freak. he's freaking about his life as a whole right now. I think he wants to get out of his parents house. he wants to sell his business. He wants to buy a home, and probably even rent for a while on his own first. he can't do that until he is one year on the job officially this month because of address requirements.
he got caught up, I got caught up, we both made mistakes, we both acted with our hearts, not our minds. I think it's another blow to the ego when it took him 24 hours to flip flop on us and make a huge decision. I must have not been all THAT important.
And sadly enough, those who know me, I don't get over people for a long time. There is no equation. I am such a sentimental person that it takes a long time for me. I can't even sleep in my bed because it was the last place I saw him and kissed him goodbye. I've been couch surfing. I'm selective about who I let in, but then I am all in with my heart. I wish I wasn't like this.
I've always had GAL activities. I kept them, but I chose to spend my time doing them with FF. It was a good time.
I gained weight with him. We ate out and he could eat and we put on lbs together. They are almost off from the heartbreak diet. Something good to come out of it, I guess.
