Is there room for a chair more?

[Painter]

I received the final decree for my signature yesterday, looked it over, let it sit and looked it over again this morning before I signed it. I'll be putting in the mail today.

WH brought my stepson as his witness to the deposition. I was really disgusted by that.

My feelings about it are falling away - I compared it today to foreclosing on a home. It's not what I wanted to happen, but I have to move forward.

I have some decisions to make about my life going forward. It's difficult, not because there's not a lot of options, but because there's so many! And what I want to do, is not what I should do.

A full-time, steady job would make it possible for me to buy my own home, which is part of my retirement plan. I have chronic health issues that makes me worry about my ability to do that. I wouldn't have to remain in a full-time job forever, probably for about a year. For the last two days, I've been in pain and so fatigued that it felt like I was going to faint at times - I'm worried about these issues in relation to keeping a job.

I have a part-time contract job that I would like to keep - and I I have found a way to do that (sub-contract while I work full-time). Once I secure a mortgage, I could go back to part-time work.

My wants are to keep painting and increase my production, and hopefully sell my art. I'm involved with the administration of the studio/gallery I'm a part of as well, which I truly enjoy.

I sing in a church choir, and can probably keep that up - although it's tough to always get up early on a Sunday morning. It could be that I would have to let that commitment go for a year.

I had a good practice as a holistic healer before I moved - and there is a possibility that I could get back into that. It's well paid but not guaranteed work. I could work a lot fewer hours than in a salaried job.

I would like to go back to college to finish my degree and get into a professional practice based on that. My concerns are again energy and health.

My demands are not extreme - I like to have a working car and a place to live, but I can have a roommate and keep my expenses low. I don't smoke, drink or gamble, I buy my clothes at thrift stores and do my own hair. I try to make my own coffee to save $5/day!

I need to sit down with someone to work on my career choices. There's an intuitive coach that I have met with once, I think I'll set up a new appointment with her.

I feel very blessed to have all these choices - I just wish I could figure out what to do!