I don't know, maybe I'm killing myself for nothing here, but it's so hard not to. H did call to say he'd be late last night and said he didn't want me to wonder, He wrote a check and I saw the amt recorded, it wasnt enough to buy cards and anything for OW, even a phone card. I still think the fact he called last night is good. H obviously bought cards like he said he was. H laughed this morning at my punishment quips; Monday H invited me to walk and was HORNY even if moody; none of the positives from last week have changed........... It's just HARD to have to see her and him in the same place at the same time. Plus that fact that it just dawned on me this afternoon that things were probably firing up between them at this time last year......yuck, my mind is wanting to get all fired up about water under the bridge. I did just have the thought though that I used to sit here and stare out my office window and cry all day....or fight back tears all day, and I havent done that for months.....so progress over all, I guess. S is on a more even keel now as well, he firmly believes his dad is not going anywhere and every thing will blow over, of course what child doesnt have such wishful thinking?
