First things first, you need to exercise. Exercise is the best anti-depressant there is. You're depressed so you will need to force yourself. I know I did. It will take a few weeks to make it a habit but you will feel your endorphins kick in and let me tell you it is a sweet relief.
Honestly, Cadence, I would protect myself financially and go for 50%. That's fair, no? And let your L do the negotiating if you don't feel confident in your ability to not get taken advantage of.
You need to find a way to get out of your own head. Let's be honest here, your H and my W will not change UNLESS they want to spend alot of time and energy facing their demons. If they can't do this, then I'm subscribing to "The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior".
You've been left 2x and me 3x. When is enough, enough?
