I'm not offended by sexual references at all! I love the idea of roses by the door. OW drives by quite a bit because the window of my office faces the main street leading to the building her office is in. Actually I would love to beat the crap out of her, but have so far resisted the impulse. Gee, I wonder why she didnt open her door that night in January when I pounded on it for 20 minutes? beats me....I wonder what H thought would happen if one of them did? hmmmmmmmmm......I guess I've detached a little since then. I don't chase her through town anymore.
I wore a dress with a kind of low scoop neck today, though of wearing something lower cut but didn't. now I'm thinking I should have put push-up pads in my bra ( H is big on boobs, to put it bluntly)..... you know, honest to god I don't know what to think about appearance stuff. I know I gained a lot of weight, but OW looks like ????? not much. Even S11 talks about her having "plenty of extra cargo in her caboose" and about her dark roots in her dyed hair. She looks like a younger version of Camilla Parker Bowles in my opinion. So, I don't know what he sees in her. yesterday at staff meeting I had on a suit (that I got Sunday) that showed off the weight I'd lost, and a lowish cut top....got lots of complements. OW had on a zip front hooded sweatshirt from what I saw....S was making a big deal about me "outdressing her"...he actually asked me what she had on yesterday....so I guess S thinks it's important....I've been trying to dress about 3 notches sexier and 2 notches better since I started DBing (read that here somewhere on the bb) but I dont know if H even notices.........Oh, I suppose he must. Maybe that's what he sees as manipulative.
guess I could stuff kleenex in my bra......nah, better not, it'd be my luck they'd pop out or up or something.....
