Hi Today I have been edgy most of the day ... I just feel like I want to finish it... I know I will not gain anything with divorce but I just feel like I am such a fool. I really can't explain my situation to anyone.
I keep saying he is depressed , financially struggling, and physically not in the best shape. I know I saw all of this when I went he was on a cane and painkillers. He didnot have extra money to even pay for us hence I paid most of the time. And of course he was depressed... but what if he has s girlfriend what if he is just enjoying his life. I know he misses the kids at least now he is showing them.
His last msg two months ago said he wants to be a better father and husband then why do I get stupid silly msg only ... like how is it going. I am fed up I do done . I deserve more , I deserve to love and be loved ... he is incapable of doing any of this and he is stubborn . I know I am too emotional I wrote couple of emails to him telling him I am done u want D then I deleted them . Not because u am afraid just because I know I am too emotional .
What do you think how should I write that. In one I want is short or should I put reasons . I want more I want s relationship. I want my kids to see a healthy relation . If nothing will change I don't wNt him no more . We have not spoken on the phone since September .. just stupid msg . I hate SMS I hate emails .
M 45 H 45 D1 12 D2 9 BD 04/14 Living two different state Not officially separated
