I'm still a little calmer today than I have been in the past, even though today is kind of a challenge with annual meeting tonight. I kind of slipped up w/dbing this morning before work and asked H "do I get to sit w/you tonight" and he said "well I don't know" in (i think) a teasing way. I told him he was being a tormenter, and he agreed. H is really grumpy about having to go to this meeting anyway, and I really am kind of anxious about OW being there. It's gonna be awkward for somebody....I gotta really work on the "as if" attitude and getting centered between now and 6 pm. I will be so glad when it's over. I may need to repost my positive/negative list from last week here for help with the "centering".
