Talked to some people and calmed down a bit before calling her. She was having a bad day at work and said that she didn't end up staying. I asked why (mistake) and she said she didn't want to.
I mentioned counseling again (mistake) and she said she didn't want counseling together. Said she was beginning to feel crushed again, she can't be there for me how I "need her to be". I told her that I didn't need anything from her but honesty. I said that she wanted to be friends and the cutting off conversations isn't something friends do. She said it isn't productive for her on some days. (I didn't ask why). She said that maybe we just can't be friends right now, "that's something you have to work up to". I told her it was her request, I'll give her space. She asked for more conversations so I was giving her what she wanted.
I feel pretty defeated honestly. I get she's having a hard time at work, that's not my fault. I shouldn't have called, I opted into an unfair comparison. Have a few plans for GAL stuff to try out this week. Going to go dark, no more pet pictures, no more responding unless necessary. She needs to wallow in her lonely miserable life right now and I can't save her. She thinks that I'm the one who needs saving. I can show her I never needed saving, I needed a wife who was around.
Love her, hurts to see her hurting so much with no idea why.
Together 7 years Married 3 Said she was taking long way home late January Left to get some space 2/19/17 BD 3/1/17 ILYB
