There is a small chance I may have copied the link from last thread correctly.
Thank you Don. The text thing was F'd up. He apologized and didn't want to do it that way but I asked "is everything ok?" and he said he had to answer. We spoke texted a little today because I did tell him I thought is was crappy to do it via text. I told him had must have had this decision already made he couldn't have done it the day before. He told me he made the decision yesterday when he told me.
He had an exchange and yes, he said he wants someone with no commitments who could have his babies and take last minute vacations. He was also under the impression I didn't want kids, but I told him he was wrong. I never said that.
He told me he loves everything I am and everything I was to him. He says he truly believes if you love something and let it go, if it's meant to be, it will come back. If this wasn't the right decision he says he prays for clarity and forgiveness. He holds dear to his heart everything we shared. He told me is really going to miss me and hopes one day we could be friends.
Don, yes, I keep going in with a wide open heart an it's not benefitting me much. Because the pain is just worse when it ends. I don't know how to do it any other way.
Job, that was a beautiful quote. And I really think it is what is. Maybe my love is too much. But one day someone will love the love I give.
I told him, as an older and wiser person, that he should always shoot for his goals. But I told him my life was supposed to go completely different and it is nothing as I planned. I told him not to kill himself achieving a perfect picture and embrace what life gives you, because we often miss what's right in front of us which can beautiful, even if it wasn't in his plans.
the pain is deep. only 3 months, I know. but I gave a lot as I always do. i'm going to miss him,.
