Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Thanks Job.

Well I met H for coffee today. It was okay. We chatted generally about home and work stuff. I did what Job suggested and sifted through what he was saying.

Basically he has hidden himself away for a year and only goes to work and sees a select few friends. He didn't say as much but it was obvious as I knew more about what his friends are up to than he does and that is saying something. Although he smiled a lot he did not seem happy and I'm not just saying that to make myself feel better he really did not look content with his lot.

I cut the meeting after an hour because I really had to be somewhere. He had gone to the men's room and came back to sit down and I shot up from my chair and asked if he was ready to go. We had finished our coffee by then so no point in hanging around. He looked a little suprised!

Yesterday was our godson's birthday. The son of H's BF whose wife wasn't very nice to me at another friend's funeral and who I haven't seen since September last year. I texted her a few weeks ago to ask what godson would like for his birthday and she invited me and D to his birthday party today which is why I had to leave H when I did. I was shocked however to find out from H that he hadn't seen our godson as yet for his birthday and had only seen his BF at hockey which finished at the beginning of April. We used to see them at least once a week and spent many holidays with them. So my thoughts of them spending a lot of time together are all unfounded.

When we got to my godsons's party it was really nice. Like my friend and I had never fallen out. She didn't speak to me about H but she did mention to D that H has just buried himself and just acts really weirdly when they do see him.

Anyway back to H. When we walked back to our cars he gave me a good luck card to give to D for her exams. He then asked if I could send him a copy of her exam timetable. To be honest I was a bit speechless and asked him why he wanted it. He said he just wanted to know when her exams are. He then said he doesn't know if D wants to see him but he didn't want to broach the subject with her just before her exams. I was a little un-DB and said that she is still very hurt and he said he knows. He looked very upset. I asked him when he wanted to get his stuff and he stuttered a bit that he would "text me..come over... I'll let you know". So not quite sure what he wants to do if anything.

All in all it was a pleasant meeting. He obviously hasn't found the nirvana he was hoping to find by leaving me. Instead he has found a lot of opposition from his friends and so he doesn't see them anymore. His idea of being able to drop everything to go and see friends was a lot of BS too as he mentioned his friend annoys him as he doesn't want to arrange stuff and instead wants H to just drop by and see them. I felt pretty sorry for him today.