Round 2, Part 2 (Electric Boogaloo)

[Tryin2figuritout]

It's our school-church Fair this weekend and we've been blessed with incredible weather. Been some good light interaction, but that's about it.

My W was talking about my SIL's Ex-H who is a real piece of work. Just a plain narcissistic, grade A, you know what, and she looks at me and says "please tell me we'll never be like that". Hard to hear that and validate because it's a gut punch and I simply looked at her like that was nonsense - the behavior, not the us as separated.

She's driven herself to a lonely place as she just hung around with me and my best friend because "she has no friends now". We've been at this school/church for about 12 years. It's like she's isolated herself and I'm just not going to pity party that. These are her choices to do so.

My friend, who's M is also in a rocky spot, said "you would have no idea that y'all are in trouble they way the two of y'all interact". The hopeful part of me knows this is because there is more good than bad in our R. The not so hopeful says it's cause she's done and already moved on with nothing to fight for. Either way, it's about me, GAL and my kids.

Had IC on Friday and it was another good session. My counselor is not the greatest, but for some reason he still works for me. In some ways, I just think forcing yourself to purge the bad, bad stuff that you only keep in your head/soul/heart/whatever is just such a relief. It clears a lot of pain, fears, etc.

Next weekend for Mother's Day, I will not have the kids, so after tonight I only get them on Wed PM/Thur/Fri AM. I've had travel for work and so that "softens" that blow, but I'm actually looking forward to it. I'm trying to plan out my next week/plus to do a sugar detox. Been losing a bit of weight but trying to jump start before Summer.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend and GAL'ing. Be well.