at present i can't compete with her new friends, freedom and most likely OM. I don't dwell on that which i can't control, but seek to be the best me. I just become frustrated on occasion. Often I remind myself my growth is for me first and that her decisions are hers. It doesn't always make it easier, but a reality check is sometimes needed
What I can control is our financial present and future and presently wrestle with whether i should say something as she is cake eating without really thinking through her future finances, as our shared debt is substantial. My soon to come inheritance, should she stay, would settle many financial woes, but i let her draw that conclusion. I also don't want her to stay for finances, but for desire and commitment to us, or not at all
BD Oct 2016 Me 47, W 43 together 25 years S 25, D 22
