25 yearsMLC 10 years late I FILE part 2

[25yearsmlc]

For some reason I'm not terrified of being hurt again.

I found that for me, after fighting so hard for my marriage, and still losing it - it was like the worst that could happen had happened.

YES^^^


Nothing that occurred in my subsequent dating life could even begin to compare, it was all small potatoes.

YES^^

I DB'd my butt off, off & on for a decade. My mom died, which was the worst loss I could imagine other than losing a child. And losing her suddenly, left a gaping hole, which was worse than h going off on his adventure...

b/c my mom was a great mom. H wasn't a great dad or h for awhile...and not having my back when i got so sick, i mean, wow...I did my best with the limited info i had then.

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Not my first post-divorce boyfriend dumping me for his old high school girlfriend, not Mr SEB imploding and turning out to be a liar. I feel strangely invincible, and simply not as attached to outcomes as I was in my twenties.

i get this. ^^ Truly.

But i want to love fully, & joyfully & without reservation - again. Or maybe not date much.

Play big or go home??