Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Thank you Job. For some reason I always feel guilty for having hope because H told me on several occasions that he doesn't want to give it to me. I can see now that the way he acts around me is to try to steer me away from finding any nugget of change or ray of light that might give me hope so mostly I try to convince myself that I shouldn't look for it.

SKM, thanks so much for your visit and for posting Blu's words. I am going to look at that and also Job's posts before I meet with him to give me some pma and confidence to be myself. My H is not and has never been good at opening up so I don't imagine that will happen at least not tomorrow. From experience he will probably just fire a bunch of questions at me so he can find out what myself and D have been up to but give very little away about himself. Par for the course.

Happy weekend everyone!