I really need help and hope.. I don't want a divor

[judela]

I agreed to a settlement with my STBXH so I don't think reconciliation will ever happen for us. I am getting very little in the scheme of things. With the money I get I am moving to NYC to be closer to friends. I still really don't know what happened. I feel betrayed and cheated. I lost everything. I know it takes time. I really loved my husband but he just doesn't care. He doesn't even want to be my friend. He has all these assumptions that he has in his head about me that are not even true plus the advice he has gotten from people who don't know me, were not there. He holds major grudges and blames me of course. I wish I could go back in time. The memories are what hurts so much. Any words if wisdom? Has anyone ever had there H later have a change of heart?