Hello...can you hear me?

[Georgiabelle]

Happy Cinco De Mayo! Some things have been good. Have enjoyed friends. NG understands I can't discuss marriage or living together right now. Dog hasn't been as crazy. S7 lost his first tooth. S14 is working hard not to go to summer school. D12 is 2 inches taller than me and stealing my clothes.

Then the unexpected....x Mr. GB asked me to hang out and watch te NFL draft. For those of you following along, I am a major sports fan. He is not, but that was something that we always watch together. I considered going for about five minutes, and then I decided that I didn't really want to. So I thanked him for the invitation and told him I hope they had fun. He sent me a few more texts later that evening. He has told me that his anxiety is better and I told him I was glad to hear that.

Now the thing that's really on my mind. I'm sure some of you recall me saying over the last couple of years that I really needed to change jobs. Unfortunately, I simply was not ready. Even though I knew that I needed to change. I'm sure some of you recall me saying over the last couple of years that I really needed to change jobs. Unfortunately, I simply was not ready. Even though I knew that I needed to change. Ideally speaking, I need to take a job where I travel because that's where I would probably make more money due to the industry that I work in. Even though my revenue is higher than my cohorts ( I work for a very small nonprofit ) The revenue is not in the segment that they want to grow. It is a segment that is shrinking overall in the industry in a while I am flawed, it is probably unrealistic for me to make that preg The revenue is not in the segment that they want to grow. It is a segment that is shrinking overall in the industry in a while I am flawed, it is probably unrealistic for me to make that segment grow to 2014 levels. Particularly when we have competitors closing. I have also started dreading going there. So, I have been put on notice. I'm a smart girl and I know what that means.

Prior to getting divorced, I interviewed and networked all the time. Not necessarily because I was looking for a new job but rather because I realized it kept me fresh and I kept my eyes open to opportunities. I have been out of the game for about three years so for the last couple of months I have been arduously pursuing new opportunities and networking. And if I'm being honest, although it is been more difficult because I haven't done it in a while, it is also really been good for me. I have an opportunity with a company working in a field that I worked in prior and it really is right up my alley. I would not be commuting about four hours a day total and I would be working at home. I would be traveling some but again it is something that I would enjoy. Of course there is a caveat. Isn't there always? 😉 It is very very small bass and pretty much all commission. Whereas I'm used to about 65% of my income coming from commissions. It is certainly possible that I am making a horrible decision but for some reason I really feel it's necessary for me to take this opportunity and to continue looking. I need to be recharged somehow careerwise and I understand being financially strapped will add stress. However, I also feel this insatiable need to finally flip a switch. Nothing is going to change where I am and it's only going to continue to shrink. And I'm not going to be invited to stay at the party anyway 😜 . So, I'm just taking a leap of faith and I'm continuing to interview for other opportunities. I'm sure I should be super terrified but for some reason this kind of excites me. Maybe I'm delirious or crazy. I just know that I have to change.

I'm not sure if any of that made sense. Hope everyone is having a fantastic Friday. Hugs to you all.