I think I might be the one who has cooties. Maybe I really have become difficult to love and please? I wonder.
I know why his past R's ended. one was his childhood best friend turned GF who cheated on him. The last one was very very jealous and controlling. He ended that one.
He did speak my love languages in the beginning. To a T. I think he does have a hard time maintaining the romance. Maybe my need for it is too strong? He does continue to date me, we do fun and different things together. He wants to hang out with me and my friends. It's good stuff.
He came and stayed over last night and we actually had a good night. We ordered in and just talked all night. We didn't address anything I said. I didn't feel like dealing with it. Today, eh. Things are ok. I think it's me and I think it's just not the very beginning anymore. I've got to decide how I feel about it.
I did ask if I was going to see him tonight and he said may for a little while he could. Then he said he was thinking about asking his cousin to go for a drink. I said "great, have fun"
I'm going to stop trying so hard and let it be what it will be. Tomorrow I'm going out with friends. Looking forward to it.
