I gotta get "outside the box" somehow this afternoon and figure out how to do this stuff differently...or maybe not do this stuff for a bit....as Sage says, it can be a lifesaver to learn that you don't have to fix anything right now....maybe it's ok for right now....If indeed they arent seeing each other that's big progress....If they were seeing each other, why would H suddenly have so much less interest in his appearance than what he had when they were?
maybe the fact that he's not "as smoochy" is good...maybe it means we're getting to a more "real" and comfortable place....his pecks and hugs seem genuine, and there's certainly more than there used to be....H seems to be much warmer and more "content" ....I don't know how else to describe it.
I was thinking before work that it feels like I need to be careful to give him some breathing room right now, but it's still hard to figure out how to do that when he complained about my being so disinterested. I'm forcing myself to not be as demonstrative right now, so we'll see what happens.
