I really love what 25 wrote to you. I have been reading along today and trying to think of what I can add and have been drawing a blank. I have been following your sitch since day 1 and there has always been something in his behavior (intentions) that has been missing. Then I continue to see how much responsibility you take--almost shouldering all of his burdens--and it makes me angry. I am angry at your WH! He takes you for granted and you have done so much soul searching and worked hard to change--your patience, being the best mom and W you can be, and committing yourself wholly to your M. H on the other hand remains selfish and childlike.
When you speak of throwing up a white flag to surrender I find myself relieved. Partly I am relieved because I want him to feel reality slap in across the face so he can wake up. Honestly though, I find myself more thinking that you deserve better. Either way, this does not have to be black and white, you know? You can continue on--taking care of you and kids and making smart decisions--and the chips will fall into place. Whether you D today or next month, it is your health and happiness that really matters.
XOXO Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
