Thanks Bill, for the encouragement. I am always surprised how I do ok sometimes, feel confident and even excited about life and looking foward to "things to come" (that is a change!) and then it's like tentacles come out of some swirling black hole and suck me down suddenly (do you thnk I've been watching too many movies, LOL?) Honestly being able to be excited and look foward to things is a change, when I stop and think about it, so I guess that is a positive I should focus on. I sure hope you're right that H notices changes I've made....as time goes on I do begin to feel stronger with them, and I know I never want to go back to the way things were....no matter what happens with us... I think my antidepressants must have had time to kick in for real, guess maybe I've needed them for years, frankly.
I hope OW is clingy and whiny....S grumps about how whiny she would be sometimes last fall when things were good between H and her, when he would take S with him to visit her and I was still oblivious....S said his dad pretty much ignored it, but it drove S up the wall....HMMMMMMMMM......maybe H was so "head over heels" he didn't notice it then, but if she was whiny then with things going her way, she might really be a fine number now......I know H absolutely hates it, so, I'm keeping my fingers crossed and trying to be calm and backed off.
