What should I be doing now (Time to Move on?)

[Coconut]

I guess its time for a bit of an update.. I find it difficult to update my sitch, since there just isn't much going on with it.

I don't speak with my STBX almost at all, I've only had one conversation with her in the last 4 months, and that was due to her texting me about getting a car for my step-son, she didn't ask for anything in the text but I was guessing she wanted me to contribute. I told her I'd contact her later to discuss (I was with my mother who I took out for b-day breakfast), I called her about 2 hrs later. Not much to the conversation, she told me about the car, and that her step-father, father, and my sons biological father were all chipping in to buy the car (it's only $3,300). I told her I thought the car was a great deal, that it looks like it's in great condition and being a Toyota shouldn't have an issue getting to 200k miles. I told her that I want him to get the car, and if I need to put money in for him to do that just let me know an amount, BUT, I would prefer to help him customize the car to make it his.. Tint, Rims, Stereo, paint, etc.. I'd much rather buy the parts and work on his car with him, than just put money in a pot. that was the end of the conversation.

Other than that conversation a few days ago, we have only text about taxes, and son, maybe 30 texts total in the last 5 months. I'm good with that, I have no desire to talk to her or hear from her at all...

As for me, I'm doing really well. I moved to NC from FL a little over 2 months ago and so far I feel that I was born to live in NC. I enjoy all the adventures I go on almost everyday, I was born and raised in the city, and nothing excites me more than to find a dirt road through woods and terrain, I love to fish and am always exploring to find that out of the way spot.

I went back to FL last weekend to see family and son, it was the first time I had been back, and although it was great seeing my family, I found I didn't miss the area at all.

When I moved out of FL, I was not Happy, I was working in the same office with my STBX, I was living in a small studio apartment (nice but small) and no longer felt like I had a "Home"; so when I left I wasn't really sad about leaving family or anything, I just wanted to GO. Now I feel like I have a Home in NC, I love where I live, I enjoy my new workplace, I have shed pretty much all the stress in my life and just get to do me, I can now say I AM HAPPY. So this time when I left FL to head home, I felt sad... I had enjoyed staying at moms house with brother, waking up having coffee and breakfast together, and the late night talks before bed. There is no doubt I'm not moving back to FL anytime soon, but I'd love nothing more than for my family to move up here

The mind movies, as someone on here used to refer to them... When I moved to NC, everything about my sitch disappeared, I didn't think about it, I just went about living my life. It was a nice break, not to have to think about anything to do with my STBX, my old life, nothing. That lasted about a month and a half, then the mind movies came back one night. I'm not sure why, or what triggered them, but I had not been feeling well, then one night the thoughts just kept running through my head, couldn't sleep that night, and called out of work in the morning since I was sooo tired and not feeling well to boot. I shed no tears (other than saying by to my son to come back home), I don't miss her and wouldn't want her back, I've managed to forgive her and lost the anger, so I really don't know why those thoughts run through my head every now and then.

That's it about me, I've rambled on enough about me...