You were such a pivotal person during some very lonely, frightening times. Thank you.
Life has a funny way of working out the way it's supposed to. I never would have believed that five years ago.
NEVER. I felt like God had it out for me.
He didn't. He had a plan.
I remember coming across this site around 2 a.m. when I couldn't sleep for all the sobbing. It was about 9 months after he left. A few months after I learned of the OW.
I used all my reporter/editor skills to research, research, dig, dig, dig and dig for any signs that someone's marriage had survived.
I would have given anything... ANYTHING for my husband to come back.
What I couldn't see was that God was protecting us from a very unbalanced person. God gave us the space needed for me to grow up and for the kids to experience a calm they never would have experienced had their dad stayed put.
There is protection in rejection.
The rejection, the OW, the crisis... none of it had anything to do with me, or the connection I had with my husband.
It's really strange how the timeline seems dead on too. Kinda freaks me out a lil. It's been 5 years last February since he left. I feel a shift, where he's concerned. He seems a little more like his old self... very timid, very skittish, but a little more like the guy I once knew.
In the last year, he has slowly increased his communication with our oldest. He is making a slow, but steady effort with our youngest with gifts and cards. She received a package in the mail today.
Anyway, feeling grateful today for this painful process and where it's brought us all. I feel I've learned a great deal about unconditional love and patience.
Not sure what the future holds, but I'm feeling pretty content today.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
