Kind of a hard evening tonight, I dropped S a religion class, and OW was leaving just as we pulled in. Thats unusual because she's usually late. Of course the crazymaker thinks shes heading for my house to see H....so I'm trying really hard to get a grip on myself....I absolutely refuse to give in to the undignified urge to follow her through town again (did t hat a month or so ago when I first took him to class) H talked to me about work before I left, I did notice him glance at the clock once, but I guess that's not unusual....usually he hurries to care for animals to get walking before the sun goes down. I did tell him I'd love a hug, and he said "sure" and gave me one, said he was really upset about work and it would take him a few days to calm down....It is so hard for me to not be clingy....I just said "see you later" and left.....I don't want to be clingy....I know it drives him nuts, and I'm hoping she's being clingy.....I sure want to let her be the only "clingon".....
I just am having trouble taking that leap of faith I guess. when I visualize my life 2 years down the road though, I see this all resolved with us still together and OW out of the picture...sure hope that's accurate or a self-fulfilling prophecy
