So frustrating... I don't know what to tell you...
Did you try yoga? It might help you to relax your body and your mind. I started a few months ago, I was very skeptical at first but after a few weeks I started to notice that the gentle stretching on my body was having a positive effect on my mind.
Rest and reach for good friends to bring some happiness to your life.
Hugs,
Me 52+ WH 57+ Married 20 + Piecing since 2016 (ready to give up...)