thanks Sage for the nwebsites, I'm going to check them out. It's interesting you mention the "leap of faith" because I often find images leaping into my mind as I deal with this....one that popped in recently was from an Indiana Jones movie, either "Raiders of the Lost Ark" or "The Last Crusade", can't remember which one, but Indy is at the edge of a huge chasm, looking down, believes he knows the "clue", takes a big gulp, steps off, and a bridge swings out underneath him....weird, that image has popped into my mind over and over recently....maybe my instincts trying to tell me something again.... come to think of it, before I had confirmation of the A, I had the weirdest dreams, over and over and over again the same dreams: of our wedding, and that something was "wrong" and we kept "doing it over" .....and also, wow, this just hit me....I kept dreaming that I was having an A with coworkers...different guys, and it made no sense to me because I don't even care for them as friends, but now I see my instincts and my intuition were at work trying to get through even then. How very weird, and the leap of faith visualization helped clarify all that. I must be tired today! Anyway, your "leap of faith" comment obviously struck a cord with me. you are absolutely right....I just gotta get to the point of being able to step off the cliff.
