thanks sage, this is very helpful. I would be really interested in the meditation sites.
I think my biggest stumbling block is also dealing with doubts about the truth of what he says....it makes it so difficult, but the doubts come from the fact that he's fed me such "whoppers" before when I trusted him....although I will say my instincts said he was lying before and I didnt want to listen to them, now they arent as "insistent", they are just more "cautious". It's so hard to be cool, calm and collected when you've trusted some one you love with all your heart and had it all thrown in your face before. But we all know about that. He was pretty awful when the bomb dropped, and for awhile after that, I'd say it was maybe mid January when I felt he was "warming".....a month after DBing started...
