Newbie trying to gain control

[SBJ]

Also, live in the present, as it is a gift of time. The future is not ours to see and it will unfold as time moves along. At this time, I wouldn't be worried about whether or not you will be interested in fixing things in the future. Just focus on the there and now. Okay?

When you say you are actively DBing, what does that mean? Job is right. Don't dwell on the past or the future. Live in the present. You can only control you in the here and now. You will have good and bad days. What people and activities comfort you? Friends? Exercise?

Job and Gordie are both correct.
Focus on you in the present.
Stay strong for your kids.
Keep yourself healthy...it is harder when you are stressed. (speaking from experience)
Get closer to God and ask him to guide your steps.
She is confused and lost right now and she is on a journey that she has to walk...only, she has to walk it alone an figure out what it is that she has to overcome.
You control you.
We are here for you to vent to when you need to let off some steam.