It's me again

[DonH]

Ginger, I so totally understand and relate with how hard it is for your heart to do what your brain knows is correct. I know you know you need to slow down. You're not even fighting that point, and that's good, but you still don't know "how". It just struck me as so sad that you think the "honeymoon" phase is over! Has it even been two months yet? Certainly not 10 weeks. Part of rushing and not slowing down is that you could rush through those early times. C'mon you have to know that for most couples it's the first 6 to 12 months for the honeymoon phase - not a couple months! When I think of all the people in my life dated for two or three months - for sure not recently, but over my lifetime. You are still very new into this. I so wish you could just slow down and enjoy it.

And then,I'm not sure how much stock I put in this phrase but have you heard that "what we fear we create?" You could be doing that with constantly thinking that the other shoe is sure to drop and that your feelings are wrong. I will tell you that the very best gift than MWD gave me in DR was the fact that I am right. That was a huge one for me as I often think I'm right and as time passes I'm proven correct. Therefore it was so difficult for me to believe that what I thought, felt, wanted, etc., was not correct. I really believed I was correct - I was right. Well the good part it, I very often am right - but perhaps only for me! I get to still be right but not for everyone else, just for me. What you feel and want is okay and right. It really is. Not everyone will fit into it for you but it's not wrong to want what you want. Your partner may just not be the right fit.

I hope that helps. Please go back to enjoying this BRAND NEW romance. What is going to happen is going to happen. You can't change it. Just be you and if FF is truly the right fit for you it will work out. If he's not then he's not but at least enjoy the time you are having.