East ,you are not nearly ready to date. Not even close. You just want something to numb the pain. This is not the way to go.
Remember, broken attracts broken, and you do not need new broken people in your life right now.
As for happiness, you really cannot expect someone else to make you happy. That is the recipe for disaster. No one else can make you happy, only you can make you happy. You have a lot of $hit to go through. A lot. The good news is that now you have time. Use it wisely. Use it to grow. Use it to grow into the best EAST you can.
