"Chill out" is an understatement. I have a coping mechanism set up now to deal with my behavior. I have my mother make me promise her to follow my desired behavior. It's a crutch, but it works for me.
Current promises: "I promise that I will not apologize to W anymore" "I promise that I will not make first contact with W unless it is about D"
Added today: "I promise that I will not talk to W AT ALL unless it is about D for two months."
As for this not really being over... well, I really am going to start dating. The lack of meaningful adult interaction is REALLY starting to get to me. Board games and soccer are REALLY helping me, but they don't fully cut it. I need one on one adult conversation.
There's also (and I'm NOT saying that I'm looking for this, but I am not sure I'd turn it down) the problem that losing almost 65lbs has brought my sex drive back with a vengeance.
My date on Saturday will satisfy the first, and has no chance of satisfying the second. I'm comfortable with that.
