Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Altair]

Hi Coly,
Well, to clarify this was the first R talk we've had in many many moons. And I didn't let it go too deep, I let him talk. And, it's true "having relations" from time to time has certainly added to the confusion in the mix. I was REALLY glad he didn't pull the "you'll find somebody new" card and just talked about us. There were breakpoints identified along the way that he withdrew, and I let him. So, it was a fair conclusion to view the deterioration as a dynamic. He said there were many things he wanted to change about himself. My friends are all, if he still loves you why is he doing this? I can't explain MLC fog to them, they don't understand he needs to go through this crisis and maybe come out the other side a better person. That I'm not on that train. From the perspective of the vets here, this can't be fixed until he's fixed. Jumping back in or taking him back or trying to save this thing before he's oven-baked as we know would just result in it happening again, and likely to be worse. It's hard to explain to a friend that going to MC right now won't help (as much as I'd love for that to be a solution, it isn't). Ah, Sunday, that hard day-- the most alone day for me. Well, I will go for my run (you too, keep up the exercise) as I know it will make me feel better.
hugs, Coly.
A.