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[Altair]

Hi all,
Well I will start with my latest news. H filed. He wanted to talk so I said come by, and he told me. Said I'll get it in the mail. Cried and told me he loved me just he couldn't do this. I said I didn't want this but I wouldn't fight him on it. It was really sad, lots of tears. Hugs, holding my hands. He said he'd like to see me again but understands if I say no. I said I would think about it.

So, deep sigh. Even though I figured it was coming it's still put me in a bit of a state of shock. He wanted to tell me in person, so I wouldn't be surprised when it comes in the mail, at some point. I am very sad.