I just always wonder when this happens: H seems so sad. last night and even Easter evening....I have found historically it means that something is not going well w/OW.....I sure hope that's the case, I can't imagine what else it could be, things are pretty good at home and most of his biggest issues in the M/R have been/are being addressed. Of course, my crazymaking worry is taht he's sad because he's trying to figure out how to tell me he's decided to leave. I havent had any emails from him today.....I'm not emailing him so far....may have to though to get info for bank...guess that's more than legit. either yesterday evening or Sunday evening he was saying how we needed to get a new tv for the family room....I wouldnt think he'd be saying that if he's not going to be around to get any benefit from it. OW just needs to drop off the face of the earth. Today before work, H came through bedroom in his towel, and I just stopped and watched him...he said "what?" again, and I said "I was just thinking how good you look and how much I love you", and he said "well, that always leads to naughty thoughts" I told him "you're right, and it is" and he said, "well, maybe later tonight, I'm feeling more rested today".....?????? As I handed him his lunch, I just looked at him again, and he kissed me. I kept my eyes open just to see what would happen and his eyes were open! so we just kind of looked at each other...I swear I saw "warmth", and then he said "thanks" (I think he meant the kiss, could have been the lunch though)....sooooooooo confusing!!!!!!!So much caught up in his personal control and mlc issues!
