I've not been following on your sitch per se but I've seen your posts around and you've always struck me as a really sparky positive type person, and I never thought to post on your thread, well, because it'd be a raincloud telling a rainbow how to shine kind of thing, I thought. Then I noticed what you said on PsySara's thread, about throwing up the white flag.
Having looked through your thread, I got to say, I totally get why you're down. All this contact with WH would drive me crazy. How are you ever going to concentrate on yourself with all this noise?
But before you give up, I invite you to stay still, with me, on this ledge. We don't have to do anything. Let's just be still, get through another day, and see what happens.