Eyes on the next curve

[Bird]

I guess it's time for an update.

H and I got our updated agreements in the mail from the atty this past Saturday. He dropped them off signed on Monday night. I signed and put them in the mail to her this week. I've decided to go ahead and let her proceed with the dissolution. It's just a piece of paper and I'm tired of the whole game. I'm tired of the lying and the cheating, and I'm ready to just move on and let him make his mistakes.

He's been at the house pretty much daily for the last week working on things to get it ready to list. We should have it on the market by next Friday. Hoping it will sell quickly so that I can find a new place for the girls and I and start fresh.

I don't know, maybe it's the spring weather. I'm just ready to make my own happiness and stop being dragged down by his unhappiness. It's been a year of emotional rollercoasters, preztleing, bewilderment and too many tears. I love him, but I love myself more. I'd like to find someone who deserves me, because at this point, he really doesn't.

D12 cut up her arm again, but thankfully told the therapist in her session on Monday and told me on Wednesday. I took her for a fresh haircut Wednesday night and allowed her to make an appointment to dye it blue. You only live once.

Hope everyone else is doing okay and finding your strength in this crazy mess. We all deserve better than what we've gotten from our spouses.