Approaching the 2 mo. mark since D Day... Just wanted to post my current thoughts/feelings, maybe to vent or just maybe to give it up to the good people on this forum.
My emotions... although more under control than the previous month... I'm still dealing with the yin yang and the ebb and flow. I've become a male version of Syble with dueling emotional personalities.
One second I want to be a loving H and carry my W to the promise land. Helping her through her troublesome sickness and bring everything/M to normalcy. "From richer to poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part". The very next second I want to run far away.
I sit with patience and see how the game is played out, waiting. I'm obsessing constantly.
I know at some point I have to make a decision... What it will be, IDK. I do know that whatever decision I do make, it will be for my sanity, happiness and security... I'm not going to waiver on that. BUT when I ask, does this decision come, how long can/do I wait?
