I'm so sorry that things haven't been going so well for you. The problem is that if you start reaching out to him, you might pick up the old habit of trying to reason w/him and right now, he doesn't want to hear it.
Does he have a birthday coming up? If so, you may try sending him a nice card, text and/or email...but keep it very generic and no relationship mush.
The best thing you can do is give him space and time. If he's not said he doesn't love you, then that's a good sign, at least to me. There is always hope in any situation and you have to have faith in the man upstairs to heal your h and help him see the bigger picture.
For now, continue to focus on you and your life. Live your life to the fullest. Sometimes, when they see us moving on, they will reach out to us. Maybe that's what he needs to see, i.e., a happy, self confident, independent judela. Think back to when you first met him...that's the person you need to look at. Somewhere along the way you lost yourself and it's not just you...we all have done this because of our careers and just life in general. Be the best judela you can be. I know you can do it.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
