I really need help and hope.. I don't want a divor

[judela]

I need advice. I have been going dark for a couple weeks. Just to give you a bit of background, my H left last June after a fight. We had been fighting more because we had some financial problems which to be honest, that is the primary reason we broke. The financial problems led to the fighting which eventually took its toll on our marriage. I love my H more than you can imagine and I took him for granted. He has resentments and will not communicate with me at all.. I am thinking its because he fears confrontation or ugliness. I miss him, I am devastated still. I feel strongly that our divorce would be a mistake. After he left, I did the crazy lady stuff, crying, begging, emails, texts etc, I don't understand men and their feelings so I have no idea if he still has feelings. He has never told me yhat he doesn't love me anymore. After 12 years and a very deep love for each other, I guess I don't see how. I want him back and I don't know what to do. Please, I need some advice, hope or anything that might help. I feel like I should reach out to him and not give up. Thank you all so much!