well guys, the W made it pretty clear today that she doesn't give a damn about how I feel nor any emotions I may have....
The counselor got in touch with me because I wrote in my online journal. she was proud that I made the realization of what triggers things. And said that perhaps I should call and share this with the W because I was emotional unavailable to her.
I called her and let her know, the answer I received was a cold callused "OK" and i sat there silent. she asked what more I wanted. I said I didn't expect much but "OK" was a little cold. she then started to raise her voice at me and was saying that is how she felt for 9 years.
I informed her that I didn't call for a fight, just to open up. She just said that "I can't do much over the phone, what do you want me to do" so I said that I had to get back to work. Bye.
Kinda cut and dry if you ask me. I guess the counselor was wrong in that it may help to open up to her.....
I guess as soon as the book gets here I will use it as my guide and try it out.
