CaliGuy - yes, I am trying to be both parents. It's exhausting!
I do need to detach even more. I was spinning a little bit yesterday. After talking with a friend I feel much better.
A new friend of mine confided in me that she was the OW in a relationship with a married man. Her friends at the time staged an intervention with another mutual friend who also was an OW. This other mutual friend was an OW for four years.
My new friend told me what they both experienced as being OWs. Hearing it directly from someone who has experienced it has helped the information I already know really sink in. (Why do I have to hear it from the horse's mouth and not just accept what people tell me?) Both OWs described it like being addicted to drugs, they loved the attention, they were living in la la land, everything else in their lives faded into the background, etc. All the things that have been discussed here over and over.
More PA nonsense from H this morning over S's antibiotics. H asked if I was giving S his medication (H isn't around when I do it). When I said yes, H asked rather surprised "before he goes to bed?" Which he KNOWS is not true since H has been around when S goes to bed. I told him, no, when I get home from work. H then commented, oh, he doesn't seem to mind it. I said, he doesn't like it and fusses when I give it to him. H said, well, when I gave it to him on Saturday, he seemed fine. Ugh. I just said, well, maybe it's just me, then.
At what point can I hit him over the head with a frying pan?
On a different note, I found a church nearby that has childcare. My mother is going to go with me for the first couple of visits to help ease any stranger danger/anxiety I may have. I am looking forward to this and am grateful for her support.
