First time here part 2

[leahsue]

Yes, once the unbearable pain subsides, I do think I'll be able to say I'm a stronger, better version of me. I'm so, so sad, and mad at myself for letting it go this long. I should have called it weeks ago. But he'd throw me just enough to keep me thinking he was coming around. Better to hurt now, than live with false hope. Right now, all I can do is lean into this hot, searing pain, and pray for morning to come.