As Retrouvaille gets closer, I find myself questioning everything, even asking myself if I should go. I don't know why or what at the moment. I'm not afraid of it. I'm not even angry right now. I barely feel sadness and when I do it passes. I just feel sort of empty, like nothing. Sometimes I even miss the hurt and anger because it's safe. It's powerful. This is unknown and uncomfortable. Maybe I'm defeated and it's time to surrender. I don't know...
Blu,
Go to Retrouvaille with an open heart to see what shakes out from the weekend. You will explore areas of emotion that are profound. I think you will find it to put things in a different perspective for you. At the very least, you can say that you turned that stone.
Wishing you all the best.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
