Round 2

[Tryin2figuritout]

Woke up this morning feeling like I need to confront W. My intent is doing a 180 by being vocal about the disrespect shown through the EA. I've talked about my depression issues and NGS and being assertive is something I've never done.

I do not plan on making this a hostile confrontation, far from it. Simply state my feelings on this and also acknowledging my contributions to the lack of intimacy between us.

It's weird because I'm feeling this is less about saving our M and more about saving myself. I'm feeling good about that, but also a little nervous and selfish about it at the same time.

This process really challenges your thoughts on everything. I've always thought about our M as a fairytale because, and you'll laugh, we met and two weeks later were engaged and now have been married for 16 years with two beautiful kids. I've now come to understand there's no fairytale, no hollywood, $hits real and it's hard work.

My parent's method of dealing with issues was burying them or ignoring them and that's what I learned growing up. I see now how harmful that can be and am working on that with my IC.

I know we all have our different situations and have to do what works depending upon where we're at. Anyone have feedback or insight into this? I'm really looking in the mirror here and feel like it is a must to demonstrate the man who I'm becoming.

Feedback would be greatly appreciated!!!