Me and NDY went for a beer a few weeks ago. NDY doesn't post on his own sitch anymore, but I'm sure he'd be happy to let you know he's now D'd and OK.
My W shows no outward signs of turning or depression, despite her latest surgery failure. She has cancelled her trip to see her parents/family and, chatting it over with NDY, we concluded this was because of embarrassment on her part. W has a small tattoo on her right shoulder that I got her when we got together. Despite the fact she is now 52, it took her several years from when she got it (she was 34 at the time) for her to admit to her Father that she had it.
Her selfishness continues, but has been turned to my SD. Noticeable, however, that she then turns her decision on her head after about 24 hours, doing the total opposite of what she said she would do!
I have now booked a trip to see my friend in the summer. A nice long weekend, followed by a holiday with the kids about a month later. Also got something booked for August. In the back of my mind (stupidly), I always think about W when booking these things. I know she wouldn't do the same to me (experience), but that's how I'm wired!
At the moment, I'm having really vivid dreams about W and the kids. Sometimes this involves the kids, sometimes we're back together, sometimes we're not, and they're in bright technicolour. I'm also finding that I'm waking up remembering every detail, even down to patterns on the wallpaper! If anybody has done sleep analysis, let me know what this means (although I think I already know it's about my hopes and my brain figuring it out, without me becoming a wreck again!).
Kids with me this weekend. So far, we've been to a museum, had food, made cakes and watched 'Cars' again (D's fave film). Today we're off to the local town for some goodies and then W will collect them later.
Bye for now (unless you can analyse dreams - let me know!)
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
