The experiences that posters have help us and more importantly, the new people who come here searching for answers.
BTW, be sure to link your old thread to this one. It helps others to go back and find your older threads. I've linked your new thread to the old one, since I had locked it.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.