Is this a head game? Why is she telling your mom about leaving so much, and why is it always when you can hear it?
You've knocked her off the pedestal. You KNOW and ACCEPT the negatives. You KNOW you can do this, that you don't NEED her, even if you may still WANT her. You can't control this, you can only control you.
If she changes her mind, if she wants you back, she needs to WORK for it. To make changes in herself, too. To make you believe there isn't going to be a round four. To make you believe she is not going to put you through this again. Enough to make YOU believe you want her, too.
