Round 2

[Tryin2figuritout]

Waking up to a mixed bag of emotions. I guess I've got a little clarity because I'm overwhelmed with grief that the path right now is clear to D. I'm not upset as much about me and the W, but mainly for the kids and our family unit.

I'm still strong in knowing what I've got to do to fight my depression, improve my listening skills, fight my NGS, etc. Enjoying the kids helps with all of this and my relationship with them has been better than ever, so I will not take that for granted.

Ramblings of an LBS:
1) Why not work at it? D is not a solution without significant consequences.

2) We've both acknowledged our contributions here, apologized and asked forgiveness. No rush to reconcile or work on our M. I'm excited about our separation to grant peace, space, etc. to heal. Just let that be what it is, but no decisions, right?

3) I've mentioned before we call our sitch/family the "anomaly". It's because we're extremely respectful to each other, our kids, our family. To me, there is no greater sign that this can happen than there is FAR too much good than bad in our M. Yes, I know that this is our family life and not just our R as H and W, but WAY more positives than negatives.

Feel like this is going to be a rough weekend, but we all know these come up. To all the LBS's on the board, I wish you all the best. This road is a painful one, but what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.